CHAPTER 3 "DEFRAGGING THE MIND #1

Some time ago I had requested, in words similar to this, “Father is it possible to have what has been done to my mind, realigned?  I didn’t know at that moment, nor did I know how to express it. I knew He understood my requested.  So I expected it to be done.

Well, weeks passed and I had forgotten about this request to Him.  This week my computer started acting up, so I did a defrag of my computer.  This was enough to remind me of my request.  With this reminder came this thought, “Tonight your request will be started.”

Well, I went to bed that night expecting who knows what.  I usually go to bed late but this night I was prompted to go early.  What occurred is one of those things that are hard to put into words.  I will simply say I could see in my mind all of the many unaligned areas of thought and links to a variety of emotions standing like towers or tall structures.  These structures began to change and exchange between one another, aligning in ways which again is hard to describe.  In the morning I felt and expressed what Neo said in the 2^nd movie of The Matrix, “Something is different.”

As the day at work unfolded, I came to experience this “something is different.”  Thoughts which at one time triggered certain emotions, now weren’t there but others thoughts and emotions were.  A strange experience changing me, to where comments were expressed, not necessarily in words to me, but rather in looks from inmates in my unit at the prison where I work, a look of puzzlement, yet they didn’t verbalize this.  They knew and I knew “something was different.” Other changes over the week began to unfold.  But what I got was not from any effort on my part other then to make my request known and the Father choosing the right moments for Him to start this process.

I won’t say that it’s finished.  It would be like sitting and watching the Defragging of your computer running a total scan of your computer.  We usually don’t sit and watch it do that; although I did do this once when I first got a computer not knowing any better.  I sat there for hours watching it...crazy.  But this gave me an experience which the Spirit used to illustrate what He was doing.  I don’t sit and watch my computer run it’s defrag program any more, nor do I sit and watch what the Spirit is doing to my mind.  I let it run its scan in the back ground and go on surfing the web.  I go on surfing, living out the experience of its result, leaving the Spirit to do what only He can do.  Happy surfing! 

DEFRAGGING THE MIND #2

As I sat at work sharing this experience with my partner Zack, more insight unfolded to me.  I could see clearer what had and was still going on in my mind.  I remember and older version of the Defrag program in my old computer.  Zack mentioned it to me, of little color blocks on the defrag screen.  As files were relocated they would form clusters of the same color.  In the newer version of defrag, it was two horizontal graphs “before” and “after” defrag.  On these two graphs were lines of red, blue and green vertical lines.  As files were relocated these colored lines compiled together, some disappeared.  Those that disappeared were temporary files not deemed needed in the computer.

 I gained this thought from this: “When these deleted files, temporary files are removed, where do they go?  We know that even if you delete things in your computer and send them to the trash can of your computer, they are still there deeply hidden somewhere in your computer, that could be found and pulled up and could be used against you someday.  Makes you think?

Well, this was thrown into my mind, in my thoughts, to a spiritual application.  When it is said He forgives us of past, present and future transgressions, where do they go?  Well as the computer, they go somewhere, but where?  Where could they go and never be recalled to mind or used against us?  This text hidden in my mind arose to answer this:

 Col.  2:14 “Blotting out the handwriting of ordinances that was against us, which was contrary to us, and took it out of the way, NAILING THEM TO HIS CROSS.”  I saw in my mind, files upon files, unreadable because they were soaked in blood.  What a vision!  These things will never be read or used against me.

In this process that’s going on now in my mind, there are things I used to remember that now I can’t remember anymore.  Try as I may, they are gone, unreadable.  Yet now things once hidden behind all this unneeded temporary files stand out and are recalled with greater ease.  Think of this text in the book of James in light of what I have just shared…”Draw nigh to God, and He will draw nigh to you.  Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double minded.”  James 4:8.   My drawing nigh to God is seen in my request.  The cleansing of my hands was seen in my seeing I needed something done to my mind.  What happened to me was the answering of my request and the purifying (defragging) of my double mind, the subconscious story house.  Amazing!!